MY STORY

🗣️Everything I SAY I stand for! In my early 20s I hustled hard to get what I wanted nothing stopped me. Whether it was producing music for the boys or just been creative with my skillsets.

 

I produced beats, mixed mastered my own music. Collab with solid artist. I thought Smoking weed was Dope ⬅️ No pun attended I just had the world in the palm of my hands.

 

I was introduced to alot of faces,  I witnessed quick slots of fame & lows. I experinced Drugs Money & sex, Gang affiliation thinking they were my family. My parents moved me and my brother from new Zealand to Australia to settle in for a healthier and successful life.

 

🗣️This is what I thought I’d not do was to bring back the Nzl my past into my early 20s in Australia.

 

I got back on. Kept everything quiet played the game I was hella exposed to heat I never wanted to mention anything to my friends & family it’s like the code was embedded in me.

My young me was kinda altered to a way where my outer body showed I was ok and humble but deep down I was carrying in me some sort of entity that just attracted alot of successful experiences  that was out of my control.

 

I started slanging Red nose keep pitbulls I was selling urban dog accessories spiked collars just coz I can.

 

I built my own little foundation for my music & my brothers we formed a group

JUSDABLOCK PRODUCTIONS & we carried that name everywhere we went with pride.

 

MY POPS PASSED I FELL BACK TO DRUG ADDICTION🙅🏽‍♂️

 

Eventually the game caught up to me. I feel deep into depression / PTSD when I experienced this cold as feeling that early morning from a Bikie I never knew that’ll happen to me. The dandenong pigs smoked me in the pigs station when I provided a NO COMMENT interview everything went down hill.

 

MY NANZ PASSED I TURNED TO DRINKING🙅🏽‍♂️

 

As I got older I realized there was more to life then what I was experiencing I had kids, I  became a father & lived like a normal family should. I cherished these moments I grew to become closer to who I was.

 

But then spilt with the mother of my kids. My youngest was 9mnths I had to say goodbye to him as he was crawling to my legs I was fkn lost! I had no idea what I was doing I was falling.

I eventually found a home within 2days god blessed me for this reason as the mum just Kicked me out she wanted her own space to grieve.

 

That’s what men do move & sacrifice everything to gain.

 

I moved into my new home in cranbourne west with no appliances, no furniture, no beds no nothing I left my dodge nitro SUV with the mum I left everything there for my kids.

 

I didn’t sleep for days from having to see my son’s everyday Especially my eldest been 2 1/2 years to not even hearing a sound in sight crickets, the sound of my breath the sound of my pounding heart is all I heard in the dead of the night.

 

Tears rolling down thinking WDF am I doing what am I going to do now. I had to regain everything back especially confidence because my kids were my everything.

 

Until right Now again the mother has taken my kids away from me even though child support is on a payment plan I can’t pay for her lifestyle I was advised by my lawyer to not make contact.

I haven’t heard or seen them. No photos. No updates no social media updates because I had to block the whole family because I know 1000% how I am going to be pictured as it’s always 2 sides to the story but taking my kids away from me Hurt me the most.

 

But I’m a SOLDIER  I always have been I will not let myself down and as a man I forgive her for what’s she’s done, I just want to see my kids. I can’t afford to be bitter and use my kids as power trips because another party is going through something difficult.

 

We all are going through tough times I’m on my 2nd eviction letter I’m doing everything possible to stay afloat!

 

Without GOD I DONT THINK I’ll be alive right now BUT I THANK GOD FOR THE PERSON I AM TODAY

 

BECAUSE right now all I know is IM BUILT FOR THIS!

 

GOD PLACED me in these challenges TO TEST ME to see if I can manage my mental health. If I couldn’t then I can’t help others.

 

RIGHT NOW IM DRUG FREE LIVING THE SOBRIETY LIFE!

 

Hitting the gym! living by my principles. Have 2 mentors supporting me. & a supportive family by my side. My nutrition is on point my body fat has decreased my protein intake & muscle mass has increased.

 

My mindset IS POWERFUL

 

I will never give up on myself like I nearly did in my past. My kids need me.

 

But most importantly I know my purpose

 

THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO CAN RELATE TO ME

 

I wasn’t born in a happy home but I create my reality & make sure my days are only happy and positive!

 

For everyone that has supported me till now you know what I have in offer for yous! But to the ones who fell off & want to know me again 🖕🏽

 

I told you excuses don’t make a man. But resilience

Honesty! And acknowledging & letting go of your past ➡️ taking accountability does!

 

I AM GREATFUL

I AM POWERFUL

I AM MANIKZ😤

NOW YOU KNOW WHO I AM.

 

⚠️DONT BE A PRICK AND SAY HELLO 🙏🏽💪🏽 

 

🗣️THANK YOU LORD AMEN😇